Taylor’s favorite song from Ingrid Michaelson’s new album!
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7 Facts About Me.
1. I am already 20 and a BSA graduate but it still feels like them cool teenage years, yea.
2. I am a listener. I listen more than I actually speak which is so ironic since people know that I talk a lot. Like, a LOT a lot.
3. I easily attach myself to people who I want to be like. I mean, I like people who exhibit characteristics which I actually wish I possess.
4. I read everything. I write everywhere.
5. I love the rain and flowers and stars and messy doodles on them blank pages because it makes me feel happy and calm and peaceful.
6. I am not a spoiled brat contrary to what people think. I work hard, I get rewarded. No more, no less.
7. I am both my biggest achievement and disappointment.
When I said I’d be graduating college drama with honors, I didn’t know that life would make me sign up for a master’s degree on it.
This year’s first quarter has been, as expected, a whirlwind of emotions and feelings that I am just so thankful that the Lord has made me through it. I haven’t been updating for the exact same reasons — I know that I’d rather keep my mouth shut because sooner or later my words will become knives boomeranging to me.
But Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Inasmuch as I want to express myself fully, my maturity and control over myself takes over.
In a way, I will be over this, soon. The unanswered questions will soon be long forgotten and it would be like they never existed. Everything, gone, soon.
Actually, what exactly did I want to talk about?
Well, nothing much. It’s just that I’m leaving in a span of a month and half - max and right now I should be metamorphosing into someone who cannot be disturbed by emotions. Someone who is not easily swayed. Someone not only physically and mentally but also emotionally ready to take up one of the biggest events of his life. Although I am truly uncertain of the future, one thing’s for sure: if I forget you now, I won’t remember you in the future. Not a blitz, not even a blip. I will soon be unmoved by you, in shaa Allah.
And although you choose to wrong me right now, I will not do the same to you; Allah swt has said, and Prophet Muhammad swa has taught, “Be kind — even to those who are unkind to you.”
So even if my heart is at the verge of breaking right now, I will be patient. For Allah will heal me in time. And I know that although indifference is the saddest thing in the world, I will learn to live with that, too.
I mean.. I can’t explain everything. I just feel so abandoned right now. And so many times I try to prove that not all people come and go and that some stay but I will always stand corrected. They always leave. No one stays. And it’s the loneliest fact in the world, but it’s the truth and there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t force people to stay you know. And I know that my appalling nature is exactly what shoos them off. And I can’t blame them. There’s only myself against myself.
Haay. Ang gulo na ng post na ‘to. Ang gulu-gulu-gulu-gulo na rin kasi talaga ng utak ko. I can’t even figure out what I want. And how I want things to be.
I just want someone who will stay by my side for a very very very long time.
Bon nuit, dawlins.
PS: I have watched Divergent and it was good. No huge disappointment, expectation-wise.
PPS: Someone just added someone on Facebook! Kyaaaah! (Walang double-meaning……)
And in the midst of the season for waking up with hangovers and headaches, thus sleeping until late afternoons, I still wake up on early morning just after dawn and all I can think of is you. What is this sorcery that you have done to me?! Please. Let’s stop this fckery. :’(
Hahahaha. This is the cupcake tradition that I am talking about. I have wackier shots last year but I din’t get to upload them, but anyway this year I did it again, and voila! I love it! Hahahaha! Photo credits to my Bebs, but yea. These are just to cute not to post! Hopefully we will be consolidating photos by this week, so expect a long post soon! Woot! Excited! :D
Wa’alaikumissalaam. Ate Towaaaayy! Thank you, Alhamdulillah! Ate Toway, punta kayo graduation ow. :) Missyou too!
Miss Fairytale needs a wink of sleep because she worked on the class legacy until 12 am last night and woke up this morning at 6 to finish it and include each and every single name on all master lists. Haay! Thank you to all those who made this event possible, in one way or another, and gosh, right now I can’t even speak decently to explain what really is on my mind. Right now, my thoughts are constellations I cant fathom into stars. Say whut? Did I even quote that right? *so sabaw!* But srsly tho, I feel so good! The instant I woke up, I knew this was going to be a good day.
Oy but oy! Walang ka-muang muang awardee really needs to catch some zzz’s na, so…
Just give it to me quick, are you coming home? Don’t dance around it. I need to hear this, I chose you long ago. Have you chosen me yet? ‘Cause I’m starting to wear thin, finding it harder to forgive, every time you let us slip down your list your priorities. I’m waiting for you to finally say you are here, and here to stay. But, darling, if you know that it’s through, can’t keep doing what you do, is it time to let go of you? Now please don’t take this wrong. You know I want you. But don’t think I won’t move on. You once whispered words to me, wondering if anybody loved each other like we do. But is it finally time to let go of you?
I feel like my heart is stuck in bumper-to-bumper traffic. I’m under pressure. Let’s just go back to the way it was. ~~
Something has been bothering me since forever and my brain itches for some rants. MAYBE LATER. But I swear, I have to let this all out before I eventually annihilate in the vast space of misery going nowhere. I can’t contain this anymore, you know I can’t. Aggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
Disturbed mind = no studying + no eating + lots of sleep (which coincidentally also) = FAILED EXAM.
Shit. Agggghhhhh!!!!! :’((((
I just want it to be you and me forever. I know you wanna leave, so baby be with me so happily. #songwalkinghome #lyricsgonewrong