Have you guys seen this new update, yet??????? Craaaay. I’m tired of tweaking my sites. But uhh. Okay i’ll find time.
PS: Other photo entry cannot penetrate through the turtle-paced connection and amzotayerd so I’ll hit the sack early and Bismillah! :)
Bon nuit, dawlens.
Hi! Just came home and it has been a long long long and tiring day. Kinchana(?????). I have a long list of worries (including my clearances and TOR release schedule — I ticked NBI clearance just today; storytelling leytuh) but srsly? Instagram. I think I should just delete that asdfghjkl account
Ang sakit, sobrang sakit. Wow.
It was like a huge blow straight to my chest and okay. I’m awake already. And right now I’m pinching my elbows tho my hands are shaking. Again, ang sakit. And that is an understatement. And I’m feeling the tears burning, wanting release. And right now I can’t breathe. Ang sakit. Ang bigat sa pakiramdam. My knees are growing weak. Ang sakit talaga.
I’m okay. I just wish I could turn back time and unread what I just read.
Shim Ji Hye, sapian mo sana ako kahit ngayong gabi lang. Kasi ang sakit, ang sakit-sakit-sakit. Hahahaha
The past weeks in a nutshell. So many photos on my camroll I hafta sort them out. Kyaah~ (Yep these are IG entries which I have never brought myself to upload. lol)
This morning I had the weirdest breakfast, like ever. I opened the oven and I found a lasagna-like dish so I automatically reheated it. And guess what! There’s mushroom + pineapples + other vegetables & beef on it! Turns out they’re slices of pizza piled up which made them look like freakin’ lasagna! Hahaha.
Strawberry sundae from Jobee’s. Mickey D’s Cookie Butter McFlurry is still the best for me, tho.
If there’s a song with the line “Sana dalawa na lang puso ko,” right now I sing, “sana dalawa na lang leeg ko!” -__-” My Dad and he have the same gifts. Isn’t that.. weird.
Tweaked my lt’s log-on screen after ages! Artii.
Remembering weeks ago. Naw. Nights with cawaiechaaan. The message reads, “Hahaha. Help me keep my feet on the ground while my head’s in the clouds. XD Alhamdulillah, indeed. Too much na nga for me to ask for more. Su Allah. Pyakarasay ako nyan tanto nako first but now binabawi rin Nya. :’)” Apparently that day I received good news. Clue: re graduation. Hihi Btw, my phone right now is idling on my drawer because of it’s wrecked LCD. *cries buckets* Still haven’t found time to get it fixed.
Mickey D’s Cookie Butter McFlurry and that slogan(?) which reads “If you could have any super power what would it be?” and I don’t know if you’ve read it but it’s about “putting your gadgets down and making conversations” blah. Or so I think? Basta yun. Haha!
My phone and my new lock screen. Again after ages. “He knows what is in every heart.” taken from the Qur’an, 67:13. :)
DD’s Piadina with.. carbo? I think? I miss going out. Someone invite me out, bi? I’ve been house-stuck for a week now ever since we came from CdeO. Now there was the family gathering last Wednesday (I think?) and another last Saturday, but I’ve been feeling so… lonely these days. My batchmates went to Iligan today but I wasn’t able to go because… well because I haven’t asked for permission, so.
Half-#ootd during the Pre-Com Exer. Most people thought the gown I was wearing was black, but no! It’s g-r-e-e-n! And it’s beautiful, btw. All my gowns are (char. bragging). But no, srsly. I thank my Mom for actually being willing to spend so much on one-day outfits (pero sya rin, actually so okay lang talaga hihihi). Di nga, my parents even fought over the cloth used during the actual graduation kay accdg to Mom it was too extravagant to buy. But my Dad insisted kay, “When I graduated, I wasn’t able to buy good clothes. Now that I have the money, I don’t want to be so frugal. You only graduate once.” And charan. Ang mahal-mahal nung tela ko. *cries buckets* *sigh* Thank you, Pang. Kyah~ Running out of words, again.
Makes me even lonelier.
PS: Have you seen my new theme? Just seeing it makes me feel a bit better.
I’m sleepy but I want to confess something.
Many people might wonder why I chose the Metro for my review. I might have had a handful of reasonable excuses but honestly? You want the real deal?
I need a breath of fresh air. Logically speaking, I would have been better off if I opted for CdeO, but no. I wanted a place not contaminated with any of my dark memories. I wanted some place else, where I could start with a clean slate and blank canvass to paint memories on. Beautiful memories, in shaa Allah.
You might say I’m running away, and yes. I am tryna escape in a way. You’ll understand if you were in my shoes…
“Is it possible to love the same person again after we became distant? Of course you can meet and love again. And it’s possible that it could get much deeper than the first time.” - Emergency Couple ♡
Sorrynotsorry but this summer I got to watch most of the pending Korean series I have on my list! And ovcorz Emergency Couple, pleaaaase! Daebak! Okay, it’s not like I watch a lot of Korean, but this is an exemption. I ship Gook Chun Soo and Shim Ji Hye so much, tho! And if you’re going to ask me who my favorite character is, it has to be Shim Ji Hye! Talk about martyrdom, selflessness and love in one. Haay. It really takes a lot.
And I’ve also been watching plenty of RM, so. Exemption daw? Yung totoo? Hahaha
Moving on (eksyuuus me? *Cheon Song Yi tone & enunciation*), I think I just might have invented my own word again — or endearment, perhaps? I find Korean so adorable when they call “Yobo!” in whatever tone (and yknow what I mean). So! Yobo + beau = yobeau! :”) Nyenyenye. Kinikilig ako sa sarili ko hahahaha puh-lease.
Taylor’s favorite song from Ingrid Michaelson’s new album!
Thanks for tagging, ate zeneeyascrib :)
7 Facts About Me.
1. I am already 20 and a BSA graduate but it still feels like them cool teenage years, yea.
2. I am a listener. I listen more than I actually speak which is so ironic since people know that I talk a lot. Like, a LOT a lot.
3. I easily attach myself to people who I want to be like. I mean, I like people who exhibit characteristics which I actually wish I possess.
4. I read everything. I write everywhere.
5. I love the rain and flowers and stars and messy doodles on them blank pages because it makes me feel happy and calm and peaceful.
6. I am not a spoiled brat contrary to what people think. I work hard, I get rewarded. No more, no less.
7. I am both my biggest achievement and disappointment.
When I said I’d be graduating college drama with honors, I didn’t know that life would make me sign up for a master’s degree on it.
This year’s first quarter has been, as expected, a whirlwind of emotions and feelings that I am just so thankful that the Lord has made me through it. I haven’t been updating for the exact same reasons — I know that I’d rather keep my mouth shut because sooner or later my words will become knives boomeranging to me.
But Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Inasmuch as I want to express myself fully, my maturity and control over myself takes over.
In a way, I will be over this, soon. The unanswered questions will soon be long forgotten and it would be like they never existed. Everything, gone, soon.
Actually, what exactly did I want to talk about?
Well, nothing much. It’s just that I’m leaving in a span of a month and half - max and right now I should be metamorphosing into someone who cannot be disturbed by emotions. Someone who is not easily swayed. Someone not only physically and mentally but also emotionally ready to take up one of the biggest events of his life. Although I am truly uncertain of the future, one thing’s for sure: if I forget you now, I won’t remember you in the future. Not a blitz, not even a blip. I will soon be unmoved by you, in shaa Allah.
And although you choose to wrong me right now, I will not do the same to you; Allah swt has said, and Prophet Muhammad swa has taught, “Be kind — even to those who are unkind to you.”
So even if my heart is at the verge of breaking right now, I will be patient. For Allah will heal me in time. And I know that although indifference is the saddest thing in the world, I will learn to live with that, too.
I mean.. I can’t explain everything. I just feel so abandoned right now. And so many times I try to prove that not all people come and go and that some stay but I will always stand corrected. They always leave. No one stays. And it’s the loneliest fact in the world, but it’s the truth and there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t force people to stay you know. And I know that my appalling nature is exactly what shoos them off. And I can’t blame them. There’s only myself against myself.
Haay. Ang gulo na ng post na ‘to. Ang gulu-gulu-gulu-gulo na rin kasi talaga ng utak ko. I can’t even figure out what I want. And how I want things to be.
I just want someone who will stay by my side for a very very very long time.
Bon nuit, dawlins.
PS: I have watched Divergent and it was good. No huge disappointment, expectation-wise.
PPS: Someone just added someone on Facebook! Kyaaaah! (Walang double-meaning……)